shortish rant :)

well hello!!!!!

today has been an okish day actually it started of crappy as it does and it progressively got better as i was talking to the girl i like :D and i watched some boardwalk empire just chilling. and i also got a letter through my door today from the administrators...... sorry

ill explain this swell. i had a job and the store i worked for closed then a week later the whole company went into administration and no one has been paid .. a penny. so we had to fill in this form the administrators sent out and send it back to see if we will get paid at least half of our wages, which is shit as i am due quite a bit from the fuckers and i might only get X amount of that. so yes back to the point. i got this letter and it basically stated I'm due more money ( the administrators said this btw ) due to the fact that the company did not give me adequate notice period for leaving. so I'm due that ONTOP! of everything else and i am also due about £400 from the job centre from last year cause they fucked up my claim and i shall be receiving that as they did send it away to there guys to see if i wasn't faking it so i should be getting that as well.

people who own companies and business are dickish!! not all but some are haha.

but yes today has progressively got good :) the only thing playing on my mind is this job interview tomorrow as i really want the job but i also made plans for me and this girl to go out on friday and what we planned i had to book tickets and they are non-refundable.. which doesn't bother me that much but i do want to spend time with her. but i think the biggest blow would be to let her down saying i could come :@ so i hope that doesn't happen. i hope i get the job but won't have to start until next again week :D even if i do have to start i will say i can't do this friday cause it was planned for a while and i aint fucking missing it.

but on a lighter note as the day progressed it got better for me... feelings wise and me and this girl have been texting more than we usually do and she goes to college/uni for art and i done a lot of art when i was younger so we both do a lot of drawings and i decided to draw her a picture of the tattoo she was wanting and i done it and she loved it :D so that made me feel great and i then started a second drawing for her and she liked that as well hehe, now she is drawing one for me :D:D:D:D so I'm waiting just now to see that when she has finished hehe.

all in all it was an ok day, not saying it didn't have its downs cause i always do :( but it seemed more manageable when i was talking to her :D.... the way i am trying to look at it is, that me and this girl get on very well... yes we don't text as much which does bother me cause i love being in contact with her. i wish she stayed closer so we could meet up more. but i think of her as my girlfriend to help me get through this shit in my life. cause she honestly does help me. its not like i run to her and tell her all my problems she already has a rough idea of my problems. it help me get through the fact i havnt had contact with a woman in a very long time :( it saddens me to say that but its true. life/ relationships don't revolve around sex but it is nice to have it haha if you get me...... and because i havnt had contact with a woman in such a long time my mind plays tricks with me.... like your ex is doing it and you aren't ..... your ex is with a new guy and she is doing what you used to like to him..... it really hurts so i have adopted this method of trying to help me through it. it works to an extent but not always and sometimes it back fires cause you think of this person being your partner and then all you want to do is be with them hahaha!

but anyways I'm trying to enjoy the rest of my night before i have this interview and i want to enjoy it with my girl friend hehe .... makes me feel like a trillion bucks when i say that hehe.

anyways

thanks

Lost Soul